My name is Alexey Kruglov. I was born in 1990 in a small town of Yaroslavl, 150 miles away from Moscow. During my mother’s pregnancy she got into a minor car accident and that may be the reason my brain doesn’t function as well as it could.
I was raised in a strict household and did my best to be a good boy. I used to get all As at school and later at the university where I studied to become a teacher of English.
During my childhood I remember to have both psychological breakdowns out of nowhere and terrible headaches that would go away only if I made myself throw up. My parents thought it was because I have poor hygiene and punished me for this. Learning something was very hard for me, especially learning how to play the piano but I basically devoted my life to get higher grades. When I was 18 I met the mother of my daughter and has tried to be a good husband and father for the next 5 years suffering from constant headaches and depression. After 5 years my wife left me with my daughter, Agatha, who is now being raised by my parents. They have realised their mistakes and treat her as a little princess who she really is. Or maybe they just always wanted a girl😄.
Nevertheless a year after the divorce I quit my job as a mortician to fulfill my old dream – building strange gear. During this year I have produced and sold over a hundred wild pedals with the help of the kindest people on Earth – the gearfreaks.
Throughout the years I have visited some doctors searching for help mostly for my anxiety and depression as by that time I got used to the headaches and just thought that feeling like crap all the time and not being able to remember things I experience visually is normal. I had no luck with heavy tranquilizers and modern antidepressants so with the help of my friends I went to Moscow to see some top Russian psychologists and neurologist and in October 2016 I was diagnosed with bad vascular brain and neck conditions. Doppler ultrasound tests have shown that the bloodstream to my brain is slowed down to a half of a normal one, several in-brain connections are damaged and my intracranial pressure is way too high. My body tried to adopt which has caused tachycardia and breathing problems – but my brain is still suffocated. Other symptoms include problems with hypothalamus functions, bad memory, photophobia, anxiety, depression and insomnia.
Thank you very much for having read this little story of my life and illness. I feel ashamed to ask you for financial help, but my dear friends told me it’s not a big deal to at least give people a way to do it.
This is my PayPalMe page paypal.me/polivox.
I went to Moscow for a two week course of intensive treatment and everything I could think about is getting better and getting back to building pedals. The treatment helped and a new pedal was finally released along with new orders, more PCB stuff etc.
Summer ment hard work and a lot of new amazing ezhi&aka pedal users.
Unfortunately it seemed to drain too much from me and I faced a doctor again.
Simply put, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Apparently my brain damage affected my psychological state and this has a name. After that I was put into a mental institution. At first they promised a two week stay, then a month stay, now they just don’t know.
All I can do is leave the hospital on my own and try to get back to work as soon as possible.
Thank you very much.